Post - Quarantine

Being quarantined leaves you with loads of time. Time which should be used for example, on studying the sgt banyak topics of anatomy for respi. But there's only so much anatomy i can take before my mind starts rejecting terms like rima glottidis and arytenoids.

So i had time to think. And write. And make lists. And look back on lists i made before. I found a list i made during the early part of 1st year, and one i made about 2 months ago. What struck me was the total contrast between the two lists, which listed things i wanted to do or complete - which mirrored my priorities during those two periods. Agak best to see my different states of mind :)

Anyway, i think this quarantine was a blessing in disguise. One thing that bummed me out about the fact that my 2 month holiday was cut down to only a mere 8 days in JB was because i didn't get to spend enough time with my mum. Rase like dah lame tak cakap2 with her and i was missing her. So when her time in KL coincided with my quarantine moments, it was truly perfect timing :). Alhamdullilah.

A lot has been said regarding the issue of PPSMI. Honestly, i didn't find too much fault with the decision. I've always felt the decision to teach Maths and Science in English earlier on wasn't really implemented that well, and from what i've observed, the level of English of the kids during that phase hasn't really improved that much.

I was part of the generation of students that learnt almost everything in BM. Did i have trouble coping with the sudden change of having to study in English when i entered Foundation. Nope, cause Alhamdullilah i had a good English background,I read loads of English books and i spent most of my time conversing in English.

So i think what's more crucial is improving the student's punye English language proficiency through a better teaching of the English language itself. If they have a good basic grasp of the language that it wouldn't be so much of a problem learning other stuff in English later on.

Another orientation session is over. This one was extremely tiring as the planning process started much earlier. It was especially tiresome having to think of modules over the phone, especially when Fifah and i seemed to be calling each other at different hours of the day.

Tapi this was also one of the funnest orientations i've been involved in when i look at the aspect of the people i had to work with. Sgtlah suke the fact that most of the facis were staying over at our apartment and the bisingness and hoohaaness and bonding is something i'm going to miss when i stay an extra one week in cyber starting tomorrow.

Certain things we did during this orientation i hope will bear some positive outcomes. I even volunteered to give a taskirah, which was something i never planned tapi it was part challenge for myself/part being forced by other people. I have nothing against giving a taskirah or anything tapi i've never done it for a big group of people.

People keep on telling me i'd have no problem doing it because i've done other forms of public speaking. But the thing is when i'm debating or story-telling or doing a forum, i'm not really expecting to impact the audience that much nor do i really believe much in the words im saying.

So, this time it was much, much different. But i've always felt that if you just stay in your comfort zone, without trying something new, you'll never amount to much, so i did it. I think it went okay...kids actually did come up to me after that to ask me questions on the things i talked about and i got positive feedbacks :)

'You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.'
- Eleanor Roosevelt

Something i found out today about someone dear to me has made me extremely happy. So much so that i can't stop smiling..weeee!!

Haha..i guess this post has no relevance at all. Just about me being happy.

InsyaAllah, everything from here onwards will go smoothly.

I think i've been getting to hung up over matters and it's been harder and harder to be the 'bigger person' in situations i find myself in.Instead, i've decided to just not care, finding it to be the more attrative option at times.

Which is ironic, since i was just writing that day about how happy it makes me to see that people care.

Now that i think of it, how certain things have played out, to some extent part of the fault lies with me.

"Kind words and forgiving of faults are better than Sadaqah (charity) followed by injury. And Allâh is Rich (Free of all wants) and He is Most-Forbearing"
[2:263]

Haix..i agak sedih sebenarnyer. About a very trivial matter...but some things just don't change u noe?

Tapi my friends define me as someone very optimistic and when they have problems, it's usual for them to come to me to help them find the light at the end of the tunnel.

I should be able to do that for myself too right? :)

Okay! Think positive!


p.s missing redza,jb and my ISM buddies terribly.

This week has been a kaleidoscope of emotions for me. I've gone through bouts of anger, frustration, gratefulness, helplessness, disgust, amazement and sometimes sheer happiness.

Thanks to those who so willingly helped and gave their support. It never fails to lift my spirit when i see people care :)

I feel so blessed.


"A candle loses none of its light by lighting another candle."